The classic quarter life crisis

“When where you are isn’t where you’re supposed to be”

Wise words from Oprah Winfrey. Now, I’m no Oprah (yet) but this is the exact thought I have had about my life for some time now.

I’ve had this itch that the way my life currently is, is not the way I want it to be. I knew that something needed to be changed, but I wasn’t quite sure what.

At the peak of it all last fall, I had my resignation typed up and ready to send. I was going to quit my job and work at a coffee shop. Mind you this was with no savings and no real plan for how I’d pay for my bills. Luckily I had a mentor who literally talked me off the edge and stopped me from making a premature decision. Then, at Thanksgiving I swore I would find a sublease and be moved in back home by Christmas. 

None of that happened. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. Life definitely stepped in and told me to wait. So instead of rashly throwing everything up in the air, I waited and I learned some lessons on being patient and being present (see post here). With the help of friends and family, I stuck to a plan that was more fiscally and emotionally responsible. 

Now, from the look of my social medias it looks like I’ve had a pretty awesome year. Don’t get me wrong, I have. Since I kept my job for 6 more months I was able to save and have some fun while doing. I started the year off by renting a cabin with my friends for four nights and ringing in the new year at GRiZ show in Asheville, NC. Then, I flew first class to Florida where I attended Holy Ship, a four day music festival cruise to the Bahamas. I’ve also gotten to spend a good amount of time in one of my favorite cities, Chicago! All this was possible due to the perks and pay of my job in consulting.

While I am extremely grateful for all the travel and music festivals I’ve attended in 2017, this nagging feeling of not being in the right place has not subsided. After every wonderful weekend, I would wash the glitter out of my hair, change my combat boots for heels and open up my two laptops to be hit with emails and to dos. 50-60 hours later I would be done with work and back into my double life. Don’t get me wrong, my office job is a pretty sweet gig. I work with some awesome people who I actually like and get some amazing perks (like free flights and happy hours). This all being said, my heart is just not in the work I do.  

If you haven’t figured it out yet, yes this is a quarter life crisis. Yes you are reading about just another millennial “who doesn’t know what they wanna be when they grow up.” Yes this is just another story of a mid twenty something year old trying to figure it out.

So to start it off, in true millennial fashion, I will leave you a quote that I feel sums up my feelings. Please imagine this as my AIM away message for the time being. 

~*Everything was unknown to me except that I didn’t have to know. How wild it was to let it be*~ brb off to find myself ttyl ❤