“When where you are isn’t where you’re supposed to be”
Wise words from Oprah Winfrey. Now, I’m no Oprah (yet) but this is the exact thought I have had about my life for some time now.
I’ve had this itch that the way my life currently is, is not the way I want it to be. I knew that something needed to be changed, but I wasn’t quite sure what.
At the peak of it all last fall, I had my resignation typed up and ready to send. I was going to quit my job and work at a coffee shop. Mind you this was with no savings and no real plan for how I’d pay for my bills. Luckily I had a mentor who literally talked me off the edge and stopped me from making a premature decision. Then, at Thanksgiving I swore I would find a sublease and be moved in back home by Christmas.
None of that happened. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. Life definitely stepped in and told me to wait. So instead of rashly throwing everything up in the air, I waited and I learned some lessons on being patient and being present (see post here). With the help of friends and family, I stuck to a plan that was more fiscally and emotionally responsible.
Now, from the look of my social medias it looks like I’ve had a pretty awesome year. Don’t get me wrong, I have. Since I kept my job for 6 more months I was able to save and have some fun while doing. I started the year off by renting a cabin with my friends for four nights and ringing in the new year at GRiZ show in Asheville, NC. Then, I flew first class to Florida where I attended Holy Ship, a four day music festival cruise to the Bahamas. I’ve also gotten to spend a good amount of time in one of my favorite cities, Chicago! All this was possible due to the perks and pay of my job in consulting.
While I am extremely grateful for all the travel and music festivals I’ve attended in 2017, this nagging feeling of not being in the right place has not subsided. After every wonderful weekend, I would wash the glitter out of my hair, change my combat boots for heels and open up my two laptops to be hit with emails and to dos. 50-60 hours later I would be done with work and back into my double life. Don’t get me wrong, my office job is a pretty sweet gig. I work with some awesome people who I actually like and get some amazing perks (like free flights and happy hours). This all being said, my heart is just not in the work I do.
If you haven’t figured it out yet, yes this is a quarter life crisis. Yes you are reading about just another millennial “who doesn’t know what they wanna be when they grow up.” Yes this is just another story of a mid twenty something year old trying to figure it out.
So to start it off, in true millennial fashion, I will leave you a quote that I feel sums up my feelings. Please imagine this as my AIM away message for the time being.
~*Everything was unknown to me except that I didn’t have to know. How wild it was to let it be*~ brb off to find myself ttyl ❤